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My Acoustic Life

`For years now, I have been trying to understand the acoustics of my life`



 "Come on lad ..how long would you stay curled in your blankets? How could you want to miss the new year's firework show"

 - Let me sleep Dad I don't want to go anywhere.

"its been almost a week that you haven't seen the daylight.At least start the new year with sparkling reflections"

 -Reflections are perhaps an illusion of the reality Dad.

"There are no illusions son", he said smiling

 - perhaps you are Dad! , you have been troubling me since one week.

Dad being dad persuaded me to climb the cliff.
and then when I reached there, the starlight greeted me.
we both lied down in the pasture as the clock ticked closer and closer to 12. I spoke my heart to him about how strongly I miss him. I told him about the depression which mom went through in his absence.
The finance started to shatter and the bank was on the verge of confiscating the house.I too have been in depression ever since and that's the reason why I don't want to step in the next year, at least not rejoicing in it!
Though he was gazing the sky, he heard every syllable coming from my mouth.Every utterance was evidently speaking of my pain. If it wasn't for GOD we wouldn't be here.He held my hand and said
"You see that star son? Ever wondered how far is it from us? "

 - Let me guess..light years? don't know! Do you have any estimation?

"Hehe, Ever wondered how the wise men found Jesus? They saw a star leading to the place where Jesus was. It is amazing how a little source of light which is so distant could provide directions rather than illuminating the path. This is called Hope. 
In our lives too, GOD sends these tiny sources of hope that are meant for providing us directions and not illuminating the path.We gotta trust him and walk. This year is a start for you. GOD may not have illuminated the whole year and that's certainly because he does not want you to know all the plans at once. As the star only Guides, this year is just a hope providing you with a direction to go in"

 (John 13:7 Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.")

That made me realise that his absence was also a plan that GOD has in my life. He wants me to trust him.
The clock ticked 12 and the fireworks stretched across the sky.
I kept the flowers on his grave and stood smiling there with dewy eyes as the sparkles reflected in them.
Certainly, Dad, there are No illusions!

some of us have stepped in 2018 with no proper plans and objective and definitely with no enthusiasm. This year is a new hope for us to head in and walk and trust GOD to illuminate the path as we walk with him. GOD bless you.


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